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The Beatles in a scene from the film "A Hard Day's Night"
"I'LL CRY INSTEAD"
(John Lennon - Paul McCartney)
1964 saw the beginning of a new chapter in the songwriting of John Lennon. Before then, as witnessed in songs like "From Me To You" and "I Want To Hold Your Hand," there was a superficiality that was quite apparent in the lyrics. A superficial expression of romance was palatable enough for their teenage fans, while it was the musicality that attracted Britain's attention.
"I had a sort of professional songwriter's attitude to writing pop songs," Lennon expressed concerning his early songwriting output. "We would turn out a certain style of song for a single, and we would do a certain style of thing for this and the other thing. I'd have a separate songwriting John Lennon who wrote songs for the meat market, and I didn't consider them, the lyrics or anything, to have any depth at all."
A noticeable shift in lyrical direction began after their first exposure to the music of Bob Dylan. They acquired a copy of his "Freewheelin'" album during their January 1964 residency in Paris, which they played constantly. "I'd started thinking about my own emotions," Lennon admits regarding Dylan's impact on his own songwriting. "Instead of projecting myself into a situation, I would try to express what I felt about myself, which I'd done in my books. I think it was Dylan who helped me realize that - not by any discussion or anything, but by hearing his work."
We could immediately see the results in Lennon's lyrics, starting with the jealous ultimatum heard in "You Can't Do That" which was written that month. From then on, you can easily interpret personal experiences in the lyrics John wrote, even when the songs were quickly put together, such as "Tell Me Why" and "A Hard Day's Night."
When it came to the writing of "I'll Cry Instead," the outpour of personal emotions, from anger and self-pity to embarrassment and retaliation, is convincingly portrayed as never before. The personal awareness expressed in Lennon's lyrics continued to transcend to more gut-wrenching heights in 1965 and afterward, but we see evidenced here the beginnings of his lyrical creativity.
The Beatles at Thornbury Playing Fields filming a scene from "A Hard Day's Night"
On April 22nd and 23rd, 1964, The Beatles filmed the sequence in the movie "A Hard Day's Night" where they "escaped" down an iron staircase and ran around foolishly in Thornbury Playing Fields in Middlesex, London. This sequence, along with aerial footage shot on March 13th on a helicopter launch/landing pad, was shot with the intention of being the backdrop to another Beatles song.
Director Richard Lester no doubt had to tell them what he had in mind, although what song would be used was undetermined at this point. The week before, John Lennon wrote a song 'made to order' when Lester decided on the phrase "A Hard Day's Night" for the title of the movie. Undoubtedly, Lennon rose to the occasion again quickly after hearing what was needed for this film sequence.
John was in a very competitive songwriting mood at this point, being that Paul's "Can't Buy Me Love" was snatched up for their current #1 hit. Having just secured the title track of the movie, he probably went to work in late April of 1964 writing a song specifically for this requirement.
"I wrote that for 'A Hard Day's Night' but Dick Lester didn't even want it," John explained in 1980. "He resurrected 'Can't Buy Me Love' for that sequence instead." Lester's decision to put Paul's song in that position no doubt was a thorn in John's side. It has been suggested that the downbeat lyrics didn't suit the happy-go-lucky antics filmed for that part of the film. John may have been consoled by the fact that "I'll Cry Instead" did get released as an American single three weeks before the film was released in the US.
Cynthia Lennon described the song as a 'cry for help' from John. "It reflects the frustration he felt at the time," Cynthia explains. "He was the idol of millions, but the freedom and fun of the early days had gone."
John Lennon and George Harrison vacationing in Tahiti, May 1964
With filming for "A Hard Day's Night" complete on April 24th, and after a well deserved month-long vacation, The Beatles returned to EMI Studio Two on June 1st, 1964 to record songs to complete the second side of their British soundtrack album for the movie. First on the agenda was to record the song John intended for the "escape" sequence in the movie.
The first of two sessions that day ran from 2:30 to 5:30 pm, which started with recording "Matchbox," a song sung by Ringo which ended up on the British EP "Long Tall Sally." The only reason this was recorded first on this day was that George Harrison's hero, Carl Perkins, was in town on tour and was invited to the studio. After choosing to record one of his songs while he was present, they jumped right into recording what they came there for, which was tackling "I'll Cry Instead."
For some unknown reason, The Beatles chose to record the song in two sections for editing together later. Since the arrangement wasn't unusually difficult, it can be assumed that after six takes of the song it was determined that it was too short. They then did two more takes (7 and 8) of the bridge and final verse for later editing. All takes featured The Beatles playing their usual instruments while Lennon sang lead vocal. Afterward, overdubs of tambourine and double-tracking of John's vocals were recorded onto both sections of the song.
On June 4th, 1964, producer George Martin and engineers Norman Smith and Richard Langham gathered in the control room of EMI Studio Two to create the mono mix of "I'll Cry Instead." Actually, two separate mono mixes of the song were created on this day; the first was of the first section of the song (from take 6) and then of the second section (from take 8). These two mono mixes were then edited together to form the mono mix that was released in the U.S.
There is a bit of ambiguity regarding this mix that needs to be cleared up. Beatles fans in America are quick to notice that the mono version of the song that was originally released here has a fourth verse (another take of the first verse) that is not included in the stereo mix. Therefore, when the EMI staff was preparing this mono mix on June 4th, they had to have also edited in another performance of the first verse from the first section of the song. If you listen closely to this mono version of the song, you can clearly hear two edits after the third verse and then one edit just before the second bridge.
Since the second section of the song that The Beatles recorded only contained the bridge and the last verse, they had to have used what The Beatles recorded in one of the first five takes of the first section. Mark Lewisohn's book "The Beatles Recording Sessions" fails to mention this inclusion, but since this was the only mono mix made before the songs' U.S. release, it had to have been also done on June 4th, 1964.
On June 9th, George Martin, Norman Smith and engineer Ken Scott assembled in the control room of EMI Studio Three for mono tape copying of the songs that would be included on both US releases of the "A Hard Day's Night" songs. Since it was still thought at this point that "I'll Cry Instead" would be appearing in the film, it was included in the list of 'soundtrack songs' and was dutifully sent to United Artists Records for inclusion on the US soundtrack album. Capitol Records received the other tape prepared on this day, which they used on their "Something New" album as well as the single release of "I'll Cry Instead."
June 22nd, 1964, was the date that George Martin, Norman Smith and engineer Geoff Emerick prepared stereo mixes of all the songs that were to appear on the British "A Hard Day's Night" album. This marathon session in the control room of EMI Studio One included going through the same procedure for "I'll Cry Instead" that they went through for the mono mix. Almost, that is. They created two separate stereo mixes of each section of the song and then edited them together to create the final stereo version of the song. What they didn't bother to do this time was to include the extra verse, so the stereo version of the song comes out to be 20 seconds shorter than the mono version that they created on June 4th. For uniformity sake, George Martin apparently decided that the mono version that would be included on the British "A Hard Day's Night" album should be of the same length as the stereo version. So a 'fold-down' version of the stereo mix, both the left and right channel of the stereo mix combined into one mono channel, became the mono version on the British album. Therefore, the mono version released in the U.S. with the extra verse was not released in Britain at all and, subsequently, was not included on the Mono "A Hard Day's Night" compact disc as released in the 80's.
Song Structure and Style
"I'll Cry Instead" was written with an intentional Country & Western flair in the standard verse/ verse/ bridge/ verse format (or aaba). No instrumental or solo section was included, so a repeat of the first verse was added (in the longer mono version) as well as a repeat of the bridge and third verse. Therefore, we almost hear the entire structure of the song twice in just over two minutes.
We start out with a one measure introduction which amounts to the rhythm guitar parts and tambourine of the first three measures of the verse, minus the bass and drums. We quickly go into the first verse, which is eight measures long and ends appropriately with the title of the song as the hook-line of the song. Although C&W is the rule of the song, the fifth and sixth measure show the blues influence appear in the chord used as well as the vocal melody line. Their obsession with blues scales in 1964, as heard in "Can't Buy Me Love," "You Can't Do That" and "A Hard Day's Night," was becoming so ingrained that it even appears in this country song.
After a structurally identical second verse, we enter into a four measure bridge which quickens the lyrical pace while staying strictly country in format except for the slight throwback to Buddy Holly on the word "away-ee-hay-ee." John then continues his line of thought right into the third verse, which is also eight measures long. The only difference here is the sixth measure which shows all rhythm guitars and drums disappear to highlight Paul's walking bass line and the sneering lyric "I'll show you what your loving man can do." The guitars and drums then kick back in for the final two measures and the final hook-line of the pattern. After a repeat of the final two (or three) sections of the song, it then resolves nicely and satisfyingly.
John's vocal delivery is very convincingly sung as pertaining to the emotional subject matter. His acoustic rhythm guitar work, while somewhat rudimentary, is also suitable to the arrangement. Paul's bass lines are well-crafted and well-rehearsed, especially during his spotlight in the third and then final verse.
Ringo's drums are nearly inaudible but played straight without any fills, which is sufficient to the task. More in the forefront is Ringo's tambourine overdub, which creates the perfect percussive rhythm for the song. Interestingly, Ringo chooses to accent the '1-and' of every measure of the verses, while he accents every 'and' beat in the bridge, as the snare would during a swing-country song (witness "Act Naturally").
Especially in top form is George Harrison's lead guitar playing. His Carl Perkins' flavored fills give the song an extraordinary rockabilly touch while his delivery is spot-on with accuracy. His juxtaposition against Lennon's acoustic rhythm guitar within the confines of the swing-country beat creates a perfect blend of atmosphere for the song.
John Lennon's lyrics as of 1964 were still, as he put it, "projecting myself into a situation and writing a nice story about it." He hadn't reached the point of writing strictly autobiographical songs as of yet but, being acquainted with so much of his life as the world now is, we see him candidly including touches of his true emotional state at the time. For instance, Lennon admitted that the lyric "I got a chip on my shoulder that's bigger than my feet" was an accurate indication of his feelings at the time.
He may not have been expressing his inner-self fully in his songs yet, but we see that he's come a long way from the cliché-heavy romanticism of "I Want To Hold Your Hand" in a short six months.
The lyrics in "I'll Cry Instead" accurately convey the full range of emotions one would have when losing in love. We first see anger ("I've got every reason on earth to be mad"), inadequacy ("I can't talk to people that I meet"), isolation ("I'm gonna hide myself away"), carrying a grudge ("chip on my shoulder"), revenge ("If I could see you now, I'd try to make you sad somehow"), and even macho over-compensation ("you better hide all the girls, 'cause I'm gonna break their hearts all around the world"). But the overriding element that he always comes back to is that, although he'd like to express himself in all these ways, he'll just "cry instead."
Although the subject of 'crying' is permeated throughout the Lennon songbook, "I'll Cry Instead" is arguably the second most telling example within The Beatles catalog of how deeply wounded he had become, "Help!" being the first. The loss of his mother and estrangement with his father, as well as the death of his closest of friends Stu Sutcliffe, had left their mark. While it was much later, such as with 1970's solo track "Mother," that he more fully came to terms with these losses, it can easily be traced back to the early Beatles cannon, as in this song.
United Artists Sountrack album for "A Hard Day's Night"
June 26th, 1964, was the premier of the song "I'll Cry Instead" in the US on the United Artists soundtrack album for "A Hard Day's Night." Or should I say, "I Cry Instead" as they mistakenly called it on the cover and record label throughout most of the reissues of the album. This was one of a handful of occasions that America got to hear a Beatles song before Britain did, as the British "A Hard Day's Night" album wasn't released until two weeks later on July 10th, 1964. This American soundtrack album got its' compact disc release on January 21st., 2014, both the mono and stereo versions of the album being contained on a single CD. Interestingly, the mono mix made on June 4th, 1964 with the extra verse, as described above, is included on this compact disc.
Two more American releases of the song appeared simultaneously on July 20th, 1964. Capitol included "I'll Cry Instead" (with the proper title) as the lead-off track of their third Capitol album "Something New." This album was released on compact disc on January 21st., 2014, with both the mono and stereo mixes contained on one CD.
Also released on this day was the "I'll Cry Instead" single with "I'm Happy Just To Dance With You" as the B-side. Since the movie wasn't released until August 11th, Capitol still assumed that the song was included in the film. Therefore the label of the single included the caption "From the United Artists Picture, "A Hard Day's Night."
It is interesting to note that Capitol desired to repeat the amazing chart success The Beatles enjoyed three months earlier when they held the top five positions on the Billboard (and Cash Box) pop charts. To do this, Capitol released three singles within an eight day period all featuring songs from the upcoming movie on both sides. Their attempt to repeat this phenomenon, while promoting sales through advertising the upcoming movie, ended up backfiring on them slightly.
The first single, "A Hard Day's Night" released on July 13th, 1964, attracted the bulk of America's attention, which catapulted the song to number one. One week later, on July 20th, both "I'll Cry Instead" and "And I Love Her" were also released as individual singles. Neither of these even cracked the top 10, "And I Love Her" rising to a respectable number 12 while "I'll Cry Instead" only managed to get to number 25.
The song did get some additional exposure at the corner soda shop. Capitol's third and final edition of their Compact 33 jukebox discs featured an abbreviated version of the "Something New" album, which was issued in October of 1964. "I'll Cry Instead" appeared as the first of three tracks on side one of that EP.
Sometime in 1967, Capitol released Beatles music on a brand new but short-lived format called "Playtapes." These tape cartidges did not have the capability to include entire albums, so a truncated four-song version of "Something New" was released in this portable format, "I'll Cry Instead" being one of these songs. These "Playtapes" are highly collectable today.
On February 26th, 1987, the song received its' first American CD release on the original British "A Hard Day's Night" album in mono. The re-mastered stereo version was released on September 9th, 2009.
On June 30th, 1992, Capitol released a CD box set entitled “Compact Disc EP Collection.” The mono mix of “I’ll Cry Instead” was included because of its being on the original British EP “Extracts From The Album A Hard Day’s Night,” which was released on November 6th, 1964.
The November 15th, 2004 released box set "The Capitol Albums, Vol. 1" also contains the song in stereo and mono as first heard on the "Something New" album. This release marks the first time that the June 4th, 1964 mono mix of "I'll Cry Instead" with the extra verse, as described above, appears on CD.
The September 9th, 2009 released box set “The Beatles In Mono” also includes “I’ll Cry Instead,” this version being a clean re-mastered production of the 'fold-down' stereo mix as released in Britain, not the original mono mix that contains the extra verse.
The Beatles at the Hollywood Bowl during their first world tour, August 23, 1964
The Beatles chose not to perform this song at any point in their career. During their first world tour in the latter half of 1964, they promoted the movie soundtrack by performing the title track as well as the intricate "If I Fell."
It's sad that many writers describe "I'll Cry Instead" disparagingly, such as being a 'slight composition', "not one of the group's best efforts" and as "less mature." On the contrary, the growth in musicianship and songwriting manifest in this song alone is undeniable.
This was their first serious attempt at creating a country-and-western pastiche, showing their adaptability as showmen. As evidenced in the coming years, The Beatles could easily morph themselves into whatever genre they chose. One need only to try to categorize the musical style of 1968's "The Beatles" album (aka "White Album"), which jumps from hard rock to folk to blues to country to cabaret from one track to the next.
Lyrically, as stated above, Lennon hints at the emotional turmoil he's been experiencing which, while not completely unheard of in pop music before this time, is truly groundbreaking for a top 40 hit. Hearing Bob Dylan use lyrics as a medium for personal expression, John tries his hand at it himself. He obviously found it therapeutic because we were treated to more of the same as early as four months later in "I'm A Loser" as well as throughout the rest of his lifetime.
What appears to be even sadder is the fact that these painful expressions were largely unnoticed by their adoring fans. We hardly noticed the difference between the infectious "She Loves You" and the painfully expressive "I'll Cry Instead." Only in retrospect can we feel for the man who went through so much in life.
"I'll Cry Instead"
Written by: John Lennon / Paul McCartney
Song Written: April 1964
Song Recorded: June 1, 1964
First US Release Date: June 26, 1964
US Single Release: Capitol #5234
Highest Chart Position: #25
Length: 2:09 (U.S. mono version) 1:49 (stereo version)
Key: G major
Producer: George Martin
Engineers: Norman Smith, Ken Scott
Instrumentation (most likely):
John Lennon - Lead Vocals, Rhythm Guitar (1962 Gibson J160E)
George Harrison - Lead Guitar (1963 Gretsch 6122 Country Gentleman)
Paul McCartney - Bass Guitar (1963 Hofner 500/1)
Ringo Starr - Drums (1964 Ludwig Super Classic Black Oyster Pearl), Tambourine
Written and compiled by Dave Rybaczewski